Freeze.

I flicked open my eyes at 1.47am.
I had a "Aw, you gotta be kidding me" expression flashing in my head.
'cept that i'm particularly drained by the pain in the throat and the runny nose.

Well. Now we know why I woke up a little too early than the time i'm supposed to.
The air cond is too cold. The snores are getting too loud.

And next comes the minutes of futile attempts at falling back to sleep.
I walked out of the bedroom in the end. Defeated, in much pain and .. sneezing.

Being sick makes you feel better about the life you had before. True.

What's a girl got to do at 2.15am anyway?

I sat with Hamlet for a while. The book was closed. But it was comforting, to have sat beside it, somehow.

Then I thought of class yesterday. Then I remembered, we were to bring a dictionary to lit class.
Being a spoiled rich brat I used to be. I have a lot of English and Malay dictionaries. I have 2 Oxford dictionaries. 2 Oxford Thesauruses. 2 Longman Dictionaries. 1 Roget's Thesaurus.
And I haven't mentioned the smaller ones yet.

They're all mine. What a twisted life I've had.
And the one I've decided to bring is the Exam's dictionary from Longman.
Why of all books? I kept asking myself.
Because. Thats the only one thats missing.

Is it human nature to want what they cannot see? What they have lost?

So I opened the store room's door. Which I normally won't, because I'm afraid of the evil within.
*sweats*
Sweating was good. There was no fan on or anything when I went out of the room. I was trying hard to sweat, I think that'd help me recover.

So. I went into the so called 'evil room' at around 2.40am and started looking for my poor and not more than 8-month old darling dictionary. If I remembered correctly.. That one costed me rm200+ - 300.
After 15 minutes. I decided it wasn't in there.
The piles of piles of junk doesn't help much.

Woman instincts soon kicked in, and when it did, for some odd reason or two, I went back to my old bedroom and found my still-looking-like-it-was-brand-new dictionary hidden in the Times bookstore shopping bag. Joy.

I found it. And also realised its weight. Do I really want to be carrying that dictionary 4 days a week to school?
I could.
I would love to.
But. I already look like a tortoise.

My bag is .. Big.
Like a shell lah. It looks like I can go in and stay.
I wish.
Hah.

Well, we'll see about the dictionary. = )
I am sick now. Like. Sick.
And I have 101 reasons to go to school today.
But just 1 reason not to.

Heh.
Tree Hill says.. "Sometimes all you need is One."

Lets see if I am going to apply that today.
Probably not. Its 4.21am now.

Oh yeah. In my search for the Dictionary. I found Belgian Chocolates along with the stuff my stepma bought me from Macau just 2 weeks ago.
Alas. I do not have a fridge. And the chocolates have been fridged before.
So they're already melted now.
Maybe I should bring them to work. Its cool there.

But I am already coughing slightly now.

Its really weird when I look at the clock and freak out a little as time approaches 5am.
.. Because 5am used to be early for me.
Now, its late. And on better days, its just nice.
Its like the 6.30am when you have school at 7am now.

On the another note. Its been 2 weeks and more since I've been to Queensbay.
..Queensbay has pretty pretty clothes.
Which I do not usually buy. Mind ya.

I've lost my tastebuds to my cold.
And an hour ago, when I made myself a cup of peppermint tea which had always made me feel better.. I couldn't smell it. And that was so sad.
Because I can't feel better if I can't even smell it right?

Its 4.33am now and this is just so random.
I'm playing all Oasis' singles this morning.
They have the right songs for my mood right now.

How am I gonna participate in Literary discussion today?I won't know yet.
My throat itches, it feels hollow and is entirely inflamed.
It hurts when I open my mouth just abit wider. And when my tongue moves, it hurts too.
My gums are swollen, the walls of my mouth are swollen to.
The condition of my nose?
The skin has gotten raw from all the rubbing and the abrupt ah-chooing. (which hurts the throat alot as well)
The mucus colony just doesnt wanna leave in bulk anymore now.
I don't think its a good idea for me to go to school.

But I am against the idea of not going as well.